Sunday, November 1, 2009

Wishing For the Impossible.

Days, Weeks, Months have already passed and yet,. none. i'm really starting to lose hope here. Some say that i shouldn't be so negative and well... hope that somehow I'll be able to pull this off. it's really been tough for me these pass few months. Since September 14 to be exact.

Hmph, September four-teen. i dread that day. Possibly the worst day of my life. Haha. it may sound a 'lil dramatic, but no. it really is that bad. Seriously. If it could go back in time, i won't hesitate to go back to that exact Monday morning and change things. I'm lucky enough that people actually believe my facade. i wonder how long i can keep it that way...

Well, i guess the up side is that my grades are pretty high and well maintained. since there's nothing to do here anyway but to study. but the down side? i have to keep pretending everyday and actually let everyone believe a mask.

hey stranger, i know you probably have n o idea what I'm talking about here, but just let me vent okay? thankies! and oh, a friendly piece of advice, A smile doesn't necessarily mean happiness.


Forever,
Needing you