Looking back.

Tittle says it all darling. Anyway, i was browsing my rant blog, as i would like to call it. Then i realized that before, this blog used to be very fun and lively. All my notes and posts were all about happy stuff. The emo cow, the mulan thing and the 333 ways to get kicked out of wallmart.

Recently though, i've been making it a vent box. Ha, don't know why i'm doing that. But hey, it works for me. So why do i care right? Wrong. I kind of feel sad that all i every blog about nowadays are sad and unfortunate stuff. They're all about anger, hurt and how my life sucks. I want to make it better. I'll try to make it better. Although, even though i say it a hundred times, i am still not convinced.

Well, i need to go do some academic stuff now.

Bye.

Why do you build me up buttercup?

Yes, why do you build me up huh? Why do you keep on giving me false hope? Tell me, what kind of sick satisfaction do you get out of it?

I asked, you said you'll try. I begged, you said you'll try harder. In the end...Nothing. I just never learn do i? I should've known better. I am so sick and tired of this so-called "Cycle" we go through. But even after everything, after you've crushed me into a thousand little pieces again, i still trust you. Or at least i did. I'll try not to do that now.

I need to vent. Sadly, i don't really think i have anyone for that. Not right now. Don't get me wrong, i love SF and Alejandro with all my heart. it's just that... i don't think i can be that open right now. I'm thankful though. For having this blog that no one really knows about. Well... not really no one, just a really few people.

Signing off now. Bye.

P.S.

I received another shiny piece of blue paper again this quarter.